rest in eternal peace.

Born 16th Dec. 1933 till
Nov. 13th,2009 - Friday.
8.35pm.
that's where her hearts stop beating at that last moment.
all i could do is hold on to her hands and try not to cry out the tears
in such sombre situation,
it just way too painful for me not to shed these tears.
another beloved person had gone.
to the same place with dad.
this is all too sudden.
Just the week before she was alright.
just last month i've visited her.
she was all healthy and normal.
still could talk a lot with mom, me and my brothers.
one heart attack happened so fast,
and that's it.
she's gone.
no longer i can hear her voice,
taste her cookings,
no longer someone treats me extra special among all her grandchildren.
somehow, i'm glad she went to a better place already.
all i could do now is pray for her everyday
and
i believe she will now and always watch over me,
just like how dad did over the past few years.
no longer she shall suffer any pain,
Rest in eternal peace,
my beloved person.

~lucifixangel~

this time is more difficult to patch up the bleeding wound.
it'll take time.
do not know how long i'll stay like this.

hoping for a miracle...

if you're hearing my prayers,
how i wish a miracle would happen,
right now...
please,
let this miracle happen.
i really need it right now.
cause this is my only hope
that i'm really wishing for...
all i ask is just one miracle.
please let it happen...
please...

i dont want it to all end here.
not tonight...
not tomorrow.
not so soon.
its not the time yet...
its too sudden...
please...
let one miracle happen this time...


lucifixangel

~~Exams

exam's tomorrow...
need to study for this bloody subject,
computing principles.
gawd, how much i HATE this subject,
the info and notes wont seem to absorb into my mind...
*smack head on the table*
on the other hand,
i'm busy watching dir en grey videos again...
how nostalgic...
their old videos...
back when they're so playful...
unlike now.
old already, what to do..
should i say matured??
hehe
alrite, need to revise now...
adieu~

sick again...

one more assignment to do,
n then
here comes mid-term exams,
n i'm sick already.
cause was rushing to finish up my bloody assignments
since last week.
there were 3 assignments.
sigh.
need to revise my bloody Finite Maths after that.
gawd, i hate MATHS.
gotta finish up my M'sian studies assignment now.
adieu...

*coughs blood*

(O.o)?

~GIMME CAFFEINE!!!

my hair is bloody short for now.
makes my face look damn round.
&$#@!@&*^@*
n i'll be a new panda species too. O.O
...tak cukup tidur...
as usual

yup, i've been addicted to coffee this lately.
especially chilled latte n nescafe 'o' ais.
y'day i had two cans of latte within 3 hours.
n today, i had latte before study skills class
n then had nescafe o ais before english class as well.
seems like an overdose amount.
but compared to my frens n my brother,
its no big deal to them.
but this is my first time doing something like that.
n i used to hate drinking coffee.
a-haha.
i cant seem to stop myself from drinking latte too.
XP
these are my effects of not enough sleeps since college started.
n i can start feeling the amount of assignments that i've been delaying is increasing more n more.
(O.O)''
hehehe.
this week n next week i'll be having pop quizzes n short tests.
n this only takes 5% of the marks for the FIA course.
so little.
damn kedekut.
hmmpphh.

anyway, i miss the way how my old blog style used to look like.
so decided to change it back.
n yea...
i 've added e-m-o sentences again.
hihi ^___^
feels so much better like this.
lol

mid-term exams is around the corner too.
around middle of Oct i guess
need to re-check my schedule again.
n i'm really glad that it will be over before i turn bloody sweet 18.
YIPPEE!!!
(^0^)/
n i'm so gonna celebrate HALLOWEEN this YEAR!!!
with a birthday cake for myself.

bloody this week i will have to attend college from monday till saturday.
all no thanks to raya holidays.
n 2moro will a 3-darn-long-bloody-boring-hours of malaysian's studies.
how to overcome sleepyness in class?
MAKE SOME NOISE PPL!!!

till then,
nitey nites, moi blog.
XOXO
* in a hyper bored + sleepy+ frustrated mood*

there goes raya...

raya ended so soon. lol
today i've skipped m'sian studies class just to do a photoshoot with my friends for the college magazine cover for halloween special. things turned out well though it got delay for awhile.
Computer principle class was kinda boring too.
somehow i miss my 2 friends that i usually hang out with, Jun and Andrea. Haha.
i'm so gonna hug them 2moro when i see them.
LOL.

i've cut my hair recently too.
it became damn damn short.
no more long hair for now cuz my hair is kinda damaged. it look like dry grasses?? >.>
well, its all because i've dyed my hair bout 4-5 times in a duration of 9 months.
how awesome is that...
therefore, i just chopped it off.
n now i look like some lil boy.
*bangs heads on table*
oh well...
nvm...
tata..
till then..
muax!!!

college?

started college since tuesday.
hmm... so far so good but there's lot of things to settle as well.
orientation day only held for a day
n we started class the following day.
so fast... O.O
the thing i like about my college is that our location is surrounded by so many
restaurants n cafe n stationeries shop!!! basically everything i need/want is there.
so darn convenient. hehe.

n bout my job,
I AM STILL WORKING.
YIPPEE!!!
moi boss dun wanna let go of me for gawd knows what reasons la..
i am somehow in love with my job.
i mean... its fun working if u have insane colleagues.
hehehe...
hope i can handle all this hectic schedule i brought to myself.
till then,
tata.
^^